Things don’t go as planned.

On Thursday night, just as Scott and I walked into a restaurant to meet some friends for dinner, my water broke. At 23 weeks. I was in shock.

I immediately called one of our midwives, who was actually at a nearby hospital attending another birth and told me to head in. We rushed to the hospital where they gave me an internal check and a sonogram.

Oddly enough, the fluid I was leaking, while it seemed like amniotic fluid, doesn’t show “ferning” which is indicative of amniotic fluid. So they’re not 100% sure my water has broken, or rather that my membranes ruptured, but they’re almost positive. Which means I am on bed rest and living in the hospital for the rest of my pregnancy, which we’re praying will be at least another ten weeks.

I’ve been so scared since this happened.

I never expected anything like this. They told me if I didn’t go into labor within 24 hours (which they thought I would), then I would live at the hospital for the rest of my pregnancy. I found this incredibly upsetting at first. There’s no going outside, we have to cancel my baby shower, I can’t throw our housewarming party, I can’t cook for my husband. I can’t do much of anything.

Now, I’m over it. My main concern is the health of our baby. I can get through anything as long as the baby is healthy. This is all I care about. I’m happy to live in this hospital for weeks on end as long as that means my baby is healthy.

I don’t know if I could do any of this without my husband, who has shown me so much love and support. We have a great relationship with minimal fighting, so it’s times like these when our marriage is really tested, that I can so clearly see his love for me. I just don’t know how I met and married the best person in the world. He has been with me every step of the way, taking care of me, getting me everything I need, bringing me food, and cramming his big 6’1 frame on a hospital chair that extends into something that barely resembles a bed.

Things don’t go as planned… but I’m still thankful.

I don’t have much else to say right now. I appreciate all of you for reading and for your support. I’ll update more in the future and talk about this more in depth, but I just can’t right now.
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