I had a miscarriage before I got pregnant with my son and it hit me hard. You can read about it here. I never saw it coming. I had prepared for a year and a half, ate almost 100% organic, took prenatals, exercised, detoxed regularly and I was 27. It happened almost two years ago at this point and I’m only now just getting around to writing about how to cope. This is for two reasons: the first is that I just wasn’t ready. I was too emotional about it and then I got pregnant with my son and spent four and a half months in the NICU with him. The second is that a reader asked me to write about how to cope after it happens. So I’ve decided to give you my best advice on how to cope and heal after miscarriage.

I want to write more about my miscarriage because it happens in roughly 20% of all pregnancies and yet it’s not something we openly discuss. Women are encouraged not to tell anyone about their pregnancy prior to the third month, lest they have to make people uncomfortable by telling them that pregnancy unexpectedly ended. And listen, if you’re someone who wants to wait because it would be too hard to tell everyone it happened, I understand and encourage that.

But my issue is that many women don’t even feel comfortable announcing their pregnancy prior to the third month because it’s not socially accepted. If you want to tell the world – tell ’em! It’s your pregnancy and you don’t have to play by anyone else’s rules. For this reason, I plan on letting people know almost immediately the next time I get pregnant.

I have a big mouth and I hate keeping secrets.

So when I had a miscarriage, I only told about three very close friends I was pregnant at all. This ended up sucking because I needed the support of ALL of my good friends. I don’t have a mom, my friends are my family. So when I had a miscarriage, I didn’t want to announce to the world that it happened. I wished I told everyone I was pregnant in the first place so they could have known that it was no longer. But I just couldn’t bring myself to text people and say, “Hey I never told you I was pregnant but I had a miscarriage.”

To make matters worse, it happened the night before one of my friend’s weddings. I was so excited about her wedding and my entire group of friends was going. This led to,

“Where are you?”

“What’s up? Why aren’t you here?”

Getting those texts while I was emotionally destroyed and laying in the bathtub because I was in so much pain just made it all worse. I wanted to be there. I wanted to tell everyone what happened. But because I never told most people I was pregnant in the first place, it just didn’t feel right.

I spent that weekend (it happened on a Friday night) in a lot of pain. Physical, emotional pain. I swear the pain of the miscarriage was worse than contractions. They’re very different for sure. So I’d first like to share how I dealt with the actual physical pain of the miscarriage.

Heating pads. Two of them. Unless I was in the shower or tub, I had a heating pad on my lower back and one on my lower abdomen. The cramps were like the worst period cramps you can imagine that radiated into my back. I was either on the couch or in bed with both of the heating pads.

I applied lavender on my feet and head to relax me. I applied peppermint to my lower back to help with the pain.

When it got to be too much, I took seriously hot showers. This actually helped the most. I couldn’t feel the pain nearly as much with the hot water running over my stomach. I laid down in the tub and let it cascade over me. The second I got out, it was back. Searing pain.

This went on for two straight days. I somehow got through it without any Advil or Tylenol. By Sunday afternoon, the pain was mostly gone and I had passed two golfball sized masses, which I still actually have in my freezer. I know that sounds nuts but I’ve talked to other women who have had miscarriages who felt the same way. I couldn’t get rid of them. My plan was to bury them in my backyard under a tree, but when I bought two trees I forgot about it when we finally moved to our new house and have not yet bought any trees.

Do what makes you feel better. Do whatever makes you feel better as long as you’re not hurting yourself or anyone else. It doesn’t matter if it seems weird. Do what you need to do.

Say NO. Seriously, give yourself permission to say no. As women especially, we often feel obligated to say yes, to people please, to be agreeable. Fuck that. You’ve just been through something emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually debilitating. Brutal. Devastating. Say no and don’t feel bad about it!

I found it helpful to surround myself with friends afterward. Scott and I went out with friends for dinner a lot. We went to their parties. We took lots of walks.

I found that it was so important not to isolate yourself, even though that may be all you feel like doing. I did that for about a week before I kind of forced myself to start being social again. It helped to feel normal. It helped to be around my friends, who are all very positive, optimistic and hilarious people. I have some friends that aren’t like this and I avoided them during my healing process.

And that’s okay. If you have a friend or family member who stresses you out, you are not obligated to spend time with them or talk to them. You’ve just been through something terrible and your priority needs to be yourself.

Looking back, I think it also would have been helpful to maybe go on a weekend away at the beach. I find that beach so relaxing and healing. I’m just in a different state of mind at the beach. I also wish I would’ve gotten massages afterward. My back really hurt for a while because I was so hunched the entire weekend. I basically laid in the fetal position for 48 hours straight.

Not to mention that massage is just relaxing and healing in general. Positive touch is so important, especially after your body goes through something as arduous as miscarriage.

And I know it’s clichè, but it’s clichè because it’s true: time heals all wounds. I’ll never forget what happened, but I did heal. I had a miscarriage in September and found out I was pregnant with my son in March. I was still upset about it in March, but I fully healed after I had my son (albeit very early, in August). Everyone is different. Be patient with yourself. There’s no right or wrong way. It’s going to take time.

My main message: take care of yourself. Indulge in things you normally wouldn’t indulge in, like a day in bed watching funny movies and ordering takeout (try to keep it healthy though because your body needs those nutrients to heal physically). Get a massage, get your nails done, get a facial, get your hair done. Maybe take up lifting weights, swimming, hiking or running. I find that being in nature always helps. Do whatever makes you happy and will give you some relief as long as you’re not hurting yourself or anyone else. 

I’ll also add that I think miscarriage is much more upsetting and stressful if you have no other children. As awful as it would be to have a miscarriage again, I at least would be comforted by the fact that my body can physically bear children. That is one thing that made my miscarriage so much worse, I was so worried that it would happen again, that I wouldn’t be able to have children.

If you already have a child, that fear is eliminated. And you can hug that child for comfort. When it’s your first pregnancy, you don’t have that option. That fear is very real. And some women go on to have another miscarriage before successfully conceiving – and my heart goes out to those women. Because it’s just devastating.

If you had a miscarriage, my heart goes out to you. You are my sister and it’s fucking brutal and I’m sorry it happened to you. We are in this together and I’m here if you ever need to talk. Comment, email me. I know what it’s like and how isolating it can be.


  1. Thank you for this post. I read your first post just about one year after you wrote it, as I had my miscarriage.

    I lost a baby(because if it is not a baby, what is it then?) in september last year and I am just about to be there for another go. I am all about openness on pregnancy and miscarriage and when people ask, if we are not going to get ourselves a second baby, I tell them that we had a miscarriage in september. I wow them and make them temporarily uncomfortable, but also tell them, that I talk about it for all couple’s sake – this is more common and more painful than anyone imagines. Shaming the sorrow of early miscarriage is cruel and wrong, women(and men!) are allowed to deal with it as they need to.

    I just want to let you know, that having a child does not necessarily ease the pain of a miscarriage, of losing their sibling. Guilt of not carrying this sibling to the end and birthing it live and well. Add this to the pain of this loss and there you have it. Also, we quickly realized that it was not about getting pregnant fast again, making “another one”. It was about this one, this little soul, that I was lucky to spend time with for 9 weeks. As an angel (I call all emotional caregivers for angels) wrote excacty this to me, that my baby and I were lucky to have had each other.

    With my son, I have lightened a candle for our angel baby and also thanked the Universe for bringing us another sibling. He too needs to heal this loss, even though it is abstract to him. It is my job to help him do this.

    Love & Light

  2. Thanks so much for this. I am going through a missed miscarriage at the moment – I was planning to tell everyone (and put something on facebook) this week but found out the baby stopped growing 5 weeks ago. This is my first pregnancy as well and my husband and I prepared for a whole year too. It just makes me so angry. I’m sitting here waiting for a miscarriage to happen and I just want to get on with my life. I would love to know if you planned to take time before conceiving again to prepare like th e first time or was it more an emotional reason? My husband has been eating really bad during my pregnancy as he was working away, but now I’m worried we arw going to have to prepare all over again and right now all I want to do is eat all the food I told myself not to. Thanks again, Kate

    • dani Reply

      I’m so sorry, Kate. I know exactly what you’re going through and it’s just so, so difficult.

      For me, my midwife told me women are more fertile right after a miscarriage. So we waited a month and tried again. It took about six months to conceive again. I personally felt like I wanted to conceive again right away, but we’re all different. That may not be how you feel or what you want. You may need time. Looking back, I’m glad I didn’t conceive right a way because I was truly such a mess afterward.

      I will say that both you and your husband eating well will make you feel better physically and emotionally. I think it’s easier to get down on yourself when you’re not taking as good care of yourself, you know? If you want to eat traditionally unhealthy foods, I’d just recommend making healthier versions and NOT feeling guilty about it. There are tons of great recipes out there for things like healthy ice cream, grain-free cookies and cupcakes, gluten-free pasta, etc. I followed the 80/20 rule post miscarriage and that helped me a lot.

      Lots of love, sister.

  3. This article really hit home for me. I just miscarried earlier this month at 8 weeks. It was my first pregnancy and it really broke me. I don’t like to compare but I would have to agree that if I had a child already I think my mind set would be different. It would be easier to tell myself that I can do it and it will happen. I try to find little bits of hope and happiness each day but I know that I will never be exactly the same person. Thanks for your post!

  4. Wow scrolling through Facebook and this post popped up in my newsfeed. I am in the middle of my second miscarriage in a row and absolutely devastated. I have a 2.5 year old daughter. I was ten weeks last August and five weeks this time. Emotionally and physically devastating. I’m sorry you went through it too.

    • dani Reply

      It really is just devastating. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I wish I could say something to make you feel better but we both know that’s not how it works. Please feel free to email if you need. Lots of love to you sister!

  5. I am currently pregnant after miscarrying my first. It is the worst. The anxiety is unreal. I am far past where I lost the first one but knowing all the things that can still go wrong makes me miserable sometimes. It’s nice to read my feelings and thoughts in someone elses words. I’m sorry we have this thing in common but grateful for women like you who are comfortable to share and encourage others in similar situations.

    • dani Reply

      Thanks so much for sharing with me Megan. It really is the worst, especially if your first pregnancy ended in miscarriage. I think it add THAT much more stress. At least for me it did. But now that I have two healthy boys, it’s much easier for me to acknowledge that it’s so common and most of the time, most women will go on to have healthy pregnancies. It was hard not to stress about that in the moment. Feel free to email me if you need to chat more. I had very stressful pregnancies so I know what you’re going through.

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